Friday, September 30, 2005

well...todae....morning...ok lah...SW2..as usual play badminton...at 1st is play wif sam..then i ask shera whose playing wif JANE beside nid 1 more ppl...i don noe they heard it wrongly or wat...jsne jus suddently ask shera come over my side..then i go over tat side..ok...nvm..jus go...ok..playing wif JANE...hmm...she use a lot of smap...argh*cant catch her ball...im running all over the place instead...okk...then is like her smap is so stronge...didn reali dare to get her ball...then after...got BSA..at B2/104...okk...going side...then i stright away on my com...then..coz got 1/2 hr break mah..so i go out lor...to canteen n eat...then...i come back..c sue's msg o...okk..reply her...then oso chat wif shu ee lah...gonna do smth abt the form thingy...then...sufing net,doing my BSA assignment...then...hmm...i go out again don noe do wat lah...saw sue...she looks sad..ask her..then is like sad coz (someone) did wanna attend her party lor..okk...confort her...hoping she'll feel better...ya...so now im fine liao...so happy..can eat well liao...but kinda worried for sue...gonna think of some way to cheer her up...haha...okk...gonna pen off here...

Thursday, September 29, 2005

well...todae...is a lonely day for me...tats wat i though in the morning when coming to sch...
well....not so bad lah..todae....hv lessons till 11 then hv 2 hrs break..1st hr wif betty,agatha they all lor...hv omelette rice...hmm...been able to eat well liao....haha....although still feel "dying" but is much better...then after tat...around 12...send betty they all to co-op tat side...then off they go to suntec...(a pity..im not selected to go lor...)okk...then feel lonely...then...esther saw sue they all....so jus went to them....told them im lonely...then chit chat a bit...haha...then...sit down...everyone buy thier food...well,i hv my lunch liao..so i jus buy drink lor....then,after tat we hv a wonderful lunch together...feel so gr8...after tat...they go n watch badminton class competition while i went for Mrs Tay's EFW lessons...well...went to B2/204...boring...not so good...gonna suffer 2hrs....then though our lessons wd end at 5 coz Mrs Seam wanna get us to do some work...haiz...but good news jus ahead...we r let off at 4...haha...then so continued doing EFW assignment..then after tat,monitress called Mrs Seam...tcher say we r let off at 3...haha...even better....haha...okk....so all my classmate went home..but im alone..don wanna go home alone jus like tat....so sms sue...they r hving tok(Managing anger)...i went up to 4th lvl...then,jus nice...they r hving break...then...esther wanna go home liao....okk..then bye to esther...sue n lai ling pulled me into thier class....haha...at 1st feel anioux....feel nervous....then slowly..adapting to my surrounding...feeling better...wow...OG they can jus laugh out loud....thier class is filled wif fun and laugter..haiz...unlike my class...filled wif competitors...stress..like during war like tat....cant even laugh out loud like OG they all....argh* y cant we jus relax n enjoy...y must my class be so up to standard....argh*..wat so-called "best class"....don think so....argh* okk...then after tat...receive a msg frm esther...uh oh....not a very positive msg....haiz..here comes my sorrow...argh* but heck care lah....argh*...okk...then went home wif prapa...hmm...his very tall..gonna look up when talking to em....haha....or should i say im too short??...lolz.....ya....so...is ok ok liao....don worry gals....(frenz)...i'll be ok...kk....

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

argh*todae is ok lah....at least appetities is back

argh*todae is ok lah...at least my appetities is back a little...can finish a plate of ommelett rice todae...haha..finelly....after so many days of skipping meals...haha...ya..then tml got my BKK CA....haix.....don noe can catch up wif the class a not leh....my faith is sitll a little....like onli hv 28% of faith lor...hmm....trying not to think too much...well...day by day....although i still feel rather down lately...but gonna push myself up...if not will lag behind one mah....ya...then tml,my class 25 ppl going suntec for a career field trip lor...onli selected students going onli..well,agatha,betty,yvonne,samantha,xue ping,malay gals,debra and natasha...in class going lor..left me, JANE, shera,esther..3 guys not going lor..haiz....then todae..i hv my late breakfast(Bunch) at canteen...Mrs Seam came...haix...she busy counting the consent form for tml trip...haix...then,she told us tat those in our class very pity cannot go...(which brings me sinking...)then say tat she jus told d rest who not going an excuse tat not enf money to bring all of us go...wat an excuse...lame lor...don noe she don noe or forgot...im 1 of d grp tats not going lor...say like tat in front of me...hurts man....faith drop lor...haix....then she put her files at our table here..went to buy food...i think she wanna sit down n eat wif us...man...i don wan...she's here...im stressed....then after she went to get her food...my OG fren(Sue,Joyce,Lai Ling,Praba) came...haha...then we chat chat lor...then Mrs Seam came liao...though she still wanna sit wif us..haha..but she sit wif d others students instead..phew*thnx to my OG fren man...haha...then...we jus like chat a while then they go off for thier lessons...we oso go off for our lessons lor...then after tat...our BSA lessons chatting online msn wif lai ling,joyce n sue..haha...chatting abt all kinds of things lah...haha...(we all so bad...chatting instead of hving lessons properly...haha...)ya...then..after tat...my lessons finish...came out....then all of d sudden...joyce came in fornt of me then boo...haha..so funny...then sue oso...so funny..alll of d sudden found her beside me...haha..ya..then chat chat a while they nid to go for lessons...so i go home lor...haha...then at home...chat again..online wif sue they all lor..haha...they still at sch lah..haha...ya...so todae...hmm...ok-ok lor...ya..hope tat tml will be better...

Monday, September 26, 2005

well,3rd day of skipping a few meals...

haiz...haiz...still don feel like eating..no appetitie....how......haiz....too sad still....too much pressure....feel like crying....cant w8 tat tis wk is over...than at least can don see Mrs seam for the nxt few wks....always feel giddy,headace,stomachach...lost of appetitie....argh* getting frm bad to worst....argh*don noe can hold on for how long man...argh*feel like crying again....didn noe watta do....who can save me....im so depressed...who.....who can get me outta tis dark world...im sinking in again....argh*tat sucide feeling is back again...how....don wanna die yet...but feeling so dark...i cant see bright light in front of me....n....oso got stress frm my frenz too...(Jane)...is like again...wat ever i do....is childish n baby to her....y....she aim me not others....she always like to bullet me....argh*....sob..sob...sob....1st word frm her...so hurtful...pains in my heart...sank deeper....how...i reali feel like killing myself again....sinking deeper in tis darkest world....how....cant help it....argh*....cant even catch up my best subject...OFP....is like suddently even my best subject OFP oso constanly failing liao...how.....argh*argh*argh*sob...sob..sob...how.....how....sob..sob..sob...sob...

Saturday, September 24, 2005

1st time going out wif frenz onli..my sis not tagging along..

todae i 1st time going out wif frenz onli..without my sis tagging along..feels so happy...coz can feel like more freedom lor..then saw joyce at MRT stations..so go up n look for sue in train then found her we ran in lor...then sue show us her phone..then she play my fav english song, "have you ever" by S club...haha...very touching..(thnx ya..sue..)well,gr8 experience lah...although tis is me 2nd time going to the church(Yhope) lor...everything is the same...oso very lucky tat get to see the same paster...hehe...he's very funny...crak quite a number of jokes..then hv dinner wif joyce,her sis and sue lor...we had chicken rice lah..haha..ok lah...but coz due to stress,still don feel like eating even though hungry so onli eat a bit..then after tat,go attenda "mini farewell/birthday party..so we all sing songs..say prayers..then after coz its getting late so we r gohome lor..then jus got home...okk...gonna pen off here..wanna chexck mail liao..hehe..

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

a very happy n feeling so...good...

tis is taken on christmas eve 2004 wif my best grp of sec sch frens...
tis is taken at my Motivator's party..
tis is taken wif some of my ITE frens,betty,me,sue,li ling, agatha and my SW2 teacher
todae,i feel so happy...i feel like im suddently so light..is like nothing is pressing on me..i feel like off loading liao...i don't feel so heavy...like flying free in the blue sky...feels very good...thnx for all ur encouragement....at least i have a bit of this confidents liao...at least i can tell myself...i can do it...sharon,i can do it..belive in it...thnx....thnx for all my frens who have been caring for me...n oso been concern for me too....thnx....so...i gonna do all my best at the interviews,jobs,studies and exams...of coz including my favourite...MUSIC!!!!haha....ya....tats all...then all above is all the pictures i hv wif all my frens...

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

gd news for me...hahahahaha...

tats betty,me,sue,li ling,agatha and my SW2 teahcer...
hahaha...sue todae tell me tat i hv a chance to sing a 1 yr contract ....i hv w8 for 4yrs since...im so happy tat i don noe how to thnx her...im reali gald...im jus so happy man..finelly...jus love music...when im young..i usually envious those kids who learn how to play music...i oso wished to..but coz my parents aren't so rich..n learning music is expensive...then when i went to sec sch..i got into the band...leanr to play clarinet for half the yr...due to some reason...i quit...but i went to join chior later when im sec 3 n still learn music...but then when im sec 4..i pass down frm my CCA...since then..i did not touch music for almost a yr...but now finelly...lol...

Sunday, September 18, 2005

yeah..finelly got my pay..

well,todae i actually did much better than yesterday..coz reali remember where the stocks were,prices of the products..and how to serve the customers..then oso very tiring coz gonna stand whole day frm morning 9.30am to 6pm...my legs hurt a lot after the long hours of standing...todae,not so nervous..can say i did not bad ya...accept still a bit nervous...but is ok...im begining to accept the reality...how works go abt...ya...begining to realise of how the world is abt oso...but i belive i can make it...bcoz if i don take out my 1st step i can nv e like others to be so sucessful and indepedent...haha...ok,gonna rest..tata...

Saturday, September 17, 2005

a tiring day for me...

well,todae is my 1st day of my 2 days job...its my 1st time doing a customers service job..so of coz im nervous...when i started serving the 1st customer i saw...she asked me the price of the shirt..so i told her the price...my voice was shaking....argh* ok..then she wanted the shirt so i got her a new set of it...i find all the stock behind the clothings...bcoz i know where the stocks was..so its easy for me n got the shirt for the customers quick...well,the continued serving customers helping out and getting what customers need...untill around 1++pm i got my lunch..its chicken rice...normally i would eat quite a lot...and is able to finish the food...but i cant finish the food todae..onli mange to finish more than half a bit....coz of nervousness....haiz..always like tat,if im nervous i 'll either drink a lot of water if not i ate a little...or i cant finsh my food...oh well,then after lunch..contiued serving customers...then all the way till 6++pm then i board the bus home...well,a very tiring but good experience day for me...coz i 1st time serving...hmm....not bad for todae...hope tomorrow can do better...and is able to smile naturely when serving customers coz i didn manage to smile todae and is again coz of nervousness....

Thursday, September 15, 2005

todae a little lucky day for me...

haha...my idol...JJ Lin Jun Jie
well,todae..suppose to have BKK test but my teacher last minute then tell us no test for today,she has postpone it to nxt monday...YEAH YEAH YEAH...im so darm happy man...yes...i can hv a little bit more time to prepared then...haha...

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

carevolutions on last sunday...

and tis is taken recently on last sunday..see the diffrences??we all change...hahaha

tis is taken at Jan tis yr
well,the carevolutions is fun..at taka there...after the performances n the competitions...after tat we across the road to the donnoe wat square there n took some neoprints..n tis is wat we hv... but i cherish them a lot..hope to see them again soon...haha...n do volunteering work again...

Saturday, September 10, 2005

yeah!!!todae is JJ's autograph sessions at IMM!!!

todae,i went to IMM to watch JJ's autograph sessions...rearch there aroud 4.30pm but it start at 5pm so i jus stood there and waited for half an hour and then he appear..the whole asmospher jus suddently high up...he is in pink panter's t-shirts wif a pink jackets...looks pretty cool..then he sung us)(fans) a few songs,everyone kept waving at him,me too and shouting at him,of coz not me lah..im very quite...haha...then is tat,i 1st time can stand so near him n is able to see him clearly unlike tat time,when i see him for the 1st time at Nee Ann City,the Yes 9.33FM streetconcert...very far away,cant reali see him clearly...haha..so is very happy...but i forgot to took some photo of him...ai ya....so i onli came back after 7++pm then took the stage's pix..haha...so at least lor...still happy lor...then i hv my dinner wif mum and sis at the kopitiam at lvl 4,met tian ling there,she hv her dinner wif her family too...lolz...but bad thing for me,when im bring my food over to my seats..i seal my hand..oh no....its swollen...very pain leh...haiz...don care jus eat...then went home the bubble tat goes very swollen after being seal is brust..argh*very very painful....so i jus stick a plaster over it...then jus carry on wif my work...hmm...tml im going to the CARE carevoluntions..hmm...nv being to it b4...gonna find out frm the CARE staff....haha.....

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

haha,yesterday went to watch "The Maid" at clementi..

haha,yesterday went to watch "The Maid" at clementi..hmm...starting ok lah..then after tat,a bit scary lor....then slowly not so scary leh..kinda boring instead....a lot of dilect words is spoken inside,so sometimes may not reali understand what they are talking abt...so i read the subtitles lor...but hor...the bass of the sound is very lound sia...argh*then,somemore watching it at clementi de Theatre...my friend who stay there b4 told me,clementi's movie theatre is the most scariest and hunted theatre...coz.... its dirty..and u noe what i mean by "dirty"....n i went inside,at 1st,i cant see anything coz i got serious night blindness...then slowly i can see the chairs..and everything inside...but i oso can see some dark "shadows" there i can 100% comfrim its not human...n i noe it...i belive in wat i saw....oso watching wif us..some at the door..some at the top...some behind..but tat does not brother me...i jus enjoy my movie...then at there,not full hse so onli a few ppl watching lor..we brought along our pop corns,sea weeds and some mineral water...so i jus ate n drink a lot....then after the whole show,my words n comments for the show is....Ok ok lah...not so scary lor....but kinda boring....but coz of tis movie,i get to noe somemore things of my chinese culture...hehe....

Sunday, September 04, 2005

finally the ghost month is over...

ok...ghost month is voer..finally...ha...now i can finelly watch the movie"The Maid" n go for a swim maybe at west coast swimming complex lor...haiz...holidays for sec sch n primary sch...but studying time for us....haiz....ok...then is tat my test results is out..hmm....not very good....im too slacking liao...must work hard liao,buck up more liao....haiz..then on 2 sep,i hv look up Mr Neo n requested him if he can ask Mrs Jayln Tay to come over our campus to teach us fun dancing and fun singing....and he said he will write her a letter asking abt the price for the dance...if its deal,we'll pay by edusave...hopefully its not to expensive lor...then i oso mention it to be ite-wide so that other students from other ITEs can join in too....hopefully its a deal then i can learn dancing....nobody knowas abt tis yet...onli wendy knows....ya...hehe...

Saturday, September 03, 2005

okk,a few days nv write blogs liao...

ok,its been a few days since i last wrote blogs...well,feeling much better...not so stress le...not so bad liao....but..still kinda sad....n a bit...haiz*my test results were out liao,results...arent so good as i think...jus pass the border line onli.....im jus too slack le....haiz*gonna start working hard liao...well,yesterday,i went for the 1st lessons for my CCA,pottery club...well,we learn how to wage the clay,then smooth it into a pot....well,not bad lah...i can say still quite good....well,on 29 oct is shu ee's b'dae..gonna celebrate her b'dae at east coast bearch..we be having BBQ...gonna invite all the CARE teachers,staff,some of her frens,us(StrengthZ) and a few of the ITE frens too...haha...tats still quite a long way though...oh yeah...the Project surperstar finals...haiz*Kelly Pan Jia Liactually loses to Kelvin Chen Wei Lian....haiz*but i still perfer Kelly...Kelly,i support u all the way!!!!