i wish for the hardest i want...

my darkess time..i dono when it will come to an end....but i hope tt my prayers work...and also,with the support of my frens and family...i believe that i can work things out...and i a, believe that i have a chance....today,is the 3rd last day of this yr...2005...time flys real fast...a blink of my eyes and now i see that a year is gonna past by soon...and after the countdown party for nxt yr has end...2006 is arrived...i can be considered that i have graduated from swiss cottage secondary school for 2 yrs and ITE college west(clementi).... i am so glad...to know many people....although...they are not counted as a fren of mine...but they are my classmate...i know that i will miss them no matter if i hate them,detest them,dislike them in the past..... now,i jus wan to corcentrade in my job and studies...the rest...i don wan to care much... i am sorry that i have hurt some of you...just wan to let you all noe that if i have hurt...i don mean it..but do hope that u can think from my point of view... and also,even if u cant be my "special" fren,but u can still be my fren...u n i may not keep in touch often...but u can jus try to read my blog sometimes....knowing how i'm doing...and so on... i am gonna miss u all...thns for the fun,joy,shorrow,tortures and happiness you guys have shared with me..thnxs a lot...i will cherish that perious memories you all have given to me...thnxs...

My all times favourite band(S club 7)

well,i came to know abt s club 7 when im a P5 kid....tt time,every one in school is busy talking and exchanging thier news on S club 7...S club is popular around my place too...i like to buy their album but tt time,im too young to think abt it...so i was unalbe to get one...till today.... then,sec 3 tt year,i got a karaokae compeition in my own CCA...my group sang the "Have you ever" by S club 7...tts the very 1st S club song i learn....it became my all times favourite...no matter how many time i listen to tis song...i still love it a lot.... for now,im able to afford it wif my own money,jus tt i gotta work and earn my own allowance...i have got a hard time looking for it...but i hope tt i can manage to get all 4 of thier albums,thier 1 and only MTV's album,their 7 movies CDs and maybe thier posters...hopefully... i don noe if i am too late for it...but i hope and wished tt i can at the least got one of thier CD with the songs"Have you ever"....i am glad and happy enf...im content jus tt....and i believe tt S club 7 will come back all 7 of them,come back togeter as a band again...and perform again...

[[* TOday went shopping at west mall for offfice wear.. *]]

What is a Friend? Someone who's there to hold your hand to say the words "I understand" To listen when you need them there Who's by your side to show they care To share your laughs, and smile with you erase the frown, when you are blue who at a call, is by your side To whom you know you can confide A shoulder there, for you to cry A tissue too, to wipe them dry An ear that's there, for you to use A helping hand, you'll never loose Someone to hug, when things go wrong to keep you going, make you strong Most precious gift that life could send so hold on tight to your best friend FriendsForever!

well,as some of you noe...i got a job thru meiling..it's at rafflets place...gotta wear semi formal..but the promblem is...i got NO formal or semi formal clothings...as some of you know..my style of wear is funky...rock...pop....cool....so...i went to shop for clothings today at west mall...hmm...onli manage to brought 3 office tops for $33 at Giordano. well,tot i could onli mange to get these for today..then went to my place's area for dinner wif mum,sis and bro...went to shop around again...then,i manage to buy one more office slippers and a bottom to match one of my tops tt i brought today...to happy...quite cheap..but its more than my expected burget...argh*gonna reali saved up when i got my pay....nid to pay for family's expenses...and my own for the sch fees....yup..for the graudation in yr2006 Jan,im gonna wear one of my semi-formal to it...haha...save up again...haha... then i also brought a top,green in color...funky one...to match a japanese bottom jeans tt i brough last yr for nxt yr's new year...haha...save up again...when did i become so smart...haha...nth lah..jus joking...hmm...tot tt my internet will be shut down till nxt yr april then can use...but its seems tt it can be used till nxt yr..dono lah...maybe mum is not comfirm wif the time....so she told me is november shut down..so maybe all of u readers might be able continued to read my life stories...haha...ok..shall end here....bye~

job interview...

well,i dono y my internet is still on..but nvm..haha...okk...today went to have my job interview....hmm...dress up quite ok lah...with high heels...ooo.....scary wor.....then i went wif my friends for the 1st job interview,Watson...hmm....i arrived there and wow...a lot of ppl....and all of them were adults...dressed so nicely and so formal....look at myself....ar....sure cannot...so never went for tt...then i went to the job agencies....fill in the form....ok..abt 45 mins....then off to my last interview...and bugis....hmm....its a gift shop....coz is 2 by 2 interviews...my sis went wif one of my friend...but im alone for that interview coz we lack of one more....so i went in alone....ar....ok lah...a bit nervous...but did quite nicely not like the school's interview test...then the boss tell us that she will contact us again....so ok lor...then after that,we went shopping!!!! yeah!!! 1 st went into a chrsitian shop to buy chirstmas card...omg....its very expensive...cost $6.80 for 6 cards...well,i did buy a pack of it coz the design is super nice...hopefully i send to my fren will like it bah...argh...then went home...my ankle and foot hurt a lot...due to long hours wearing high heels for shopping....haiz....pain sia....gonna rest...tata~~~

cold day..woot!

My friends i know throught NDP2005...

Xue Ping and yvonne,my ITE nitech classmate and friends...
PLSH and WBSA,my ite nitech frens,i will miz u all a lot.....
StrenghtZ,my sec sch frens,i miz them a lot... and also will keep the happiness u have given to me...

today is the 2nd day of my exam but the last day of exam for the PLSH bcoz i still got BKK after tt,i can then enjoy my holidays....today is a cold day..wet weather...woot....everyone is school is so cold that most of them are wearing jackets and sweater... today,is testing on OFP...hmm....its an 1 1/2 hour exam...i tot it is such a long hour...but jus a blink,time passes so fast..leaving onli 1/2 hour and i am still at section B(visitor's register) omg....i quickly finish section B then go on to sec C....well,i am expected to do onli one of the 2 question,so i quickly answer question 24 which is the last question for section C.... look at my watch,onli 5 minutes left...i check through my answers....then im all done...came out of my exam room...mit up wif the PLSH...well,see sue and helene wearing wind breakers and jackets...poor helene,i think she caught a cold...(helene,take care...ya...) then chit chat with them a little...then go home....after tml,my ite NITECH yr 1 life will end...so i display some of the photo i took wif my frens i know tis yr,my family(PLSH) i know,and my Gang(StrengthZ).....PLSH u can open ur surprise either today or tml...hope u like it...i spent some time n effort in it...by the way,i have to annouce one thing here.... and that is,today is the last day of me updating my blog,u got to wait till furhter updates untill nxt year march...due to my internet is going to be cut off for 4 months...so i am unable to suf the net,MSN chatting,play online games and of coz, blogging...so guys n gals,my friends, and my FAMILY(u noe who u r...),pls w8 for my updates nxt yr at around march...ok....i will update imediately when my internet sever is back on again....thnx so much for all who hv been reading my blog...thnx u.... and thnxs for giving me such a wonderful and a beautiful memories with u guys in my ITE NITECH school life...i love u all....thnx u so much....i will miz u all....c u all nxt yr march...bye...take care....hope to c u all again soon....

today is the day,final exam!!!!

well,todae is a very very nerouvs day...todae is my big day..the final exam!!!!!i can hardly wake up in the morning...but still manage to wake up,brush up and had my breakfast....
then hurry off to school...
when i arrived at school...i then reliase one thing that i forgotten to bring..and its is one of the most important thing tt i forgot....my PENCILCASE....!!!!!! wat am i suppose to do...???!!!!
so i sms agatha and asked her to bring extra pens for me...
she did bring extra pen for me with addition a correction pen...thnx ya..pal....
then mit up wif the PLSH...give sue 17 pats on her back then wished her good luck...
after that,we went to our examination room...mine is at B2/108 and thiers is at B2/103...woot...so far away....but wat a concidene,thier room was jus beside me..haha...i can see sue and helene outside thier room getting ready to enter the room...haha
then after i got settle down at my seat,here comes wei ling rushing to her exam room which is also beside my exmination room,B2/107...then our exams starts....
hmm...the paper is consider ok...but im totally stuck at section C on the memorandum..o...gosh...i forgotten the format....i don noe how to answer the question....haiz...so i anyhow do....hopefully my guess is correct bah..now is revision for tml's paper..OFP...argh*im still stuck at Chapter 3....but buck up...ya...

last day for revision...

omg..tml is the final day...final EXAM!!!!then aft the 3 days of exam...my ite life will soon be ended....for Nitech ite life will be over...and i gonna miz all my FRENS.........especially the frens i noe in my 1st yr of ite...coz we r all going to be seperated again....i miz u guys... tml is the 1st day of exam...the subject testing is EFW(effective writting)... hmm...i think can still manage to cope wif it... still working hard on OFP and of coz BKK.... after the exams,holidays...yahooo!!! then that time,im gonna get out to work...earn some money to help out on my family's fanical problems... then oso wanna have some fun..and maybe c if i can help out abit for CARE...haha but i turly miz my frens.... StrengthZ, PLSH,agatha,my NDP grp of frens(li ting,chris,wendy)

4 more days to the final exam...

well,all of us were busy studying and revising for our final exam....4 more days to the final exams...omg....so stessssssss........ well,todae,went to the MC near my mum's work place and have a study group wif my frens(WBSA)...studying the BKK(hardest subject of all...) well,doing fine...at least now i know how to do bank reconciliations and control accounts....now i jus have to cover up the final accounts with adjustments... then the rest of my frens oso all busy covering all the chapters for OFP and EFW....woot...busy busy busy...stressssssssssssss.......... but anyway...good luck to all my frens who is having thier exams now...all the best to the PLSH,WBSA and StrengthZ and hopefully can get into the course or campus u wants...) BEST OF LUCK!

wow...im bloated...woot!!!

todae,me,sis and my mum went to Expo for the Asia Food Exhibition...and of coz...we eat a lot...a lot of nice and yummy food there....then right nw,i jus got home...woot!!! then also gt some freebies and also brought a lot of burget food...carry those heavy food till my hand hurts,it turn red...ouch* i am dress in a blueish black tude wif a yellow out outside,and jeans.luckily i am dressed in a sleefless if nt i will be hot to death coz there are a lot of ppl there...but again tis yr,i went for the food exhibition,i was stepped on my foot by a lady's high heel again...and it hurts a lot...aft a rest i contiued wif my mum for more FOOD!!!! haha...i jus love to eat...haha...then aft awhile,me n sis were tired..so we head back home...finally,i can get a rest aft eating so much food for the day...i am so BLOATEDDDDDDD..........

hmm...normal day...

well,todae...nth special...whole day....sufing net...doin nth at sch....is either tcher nt free,or the rooms we using is nt available...then i suppose to have my intervies test with Mrs Lim at lilibrary on 10.30am...but the library was close and i find her no where...well,so i went to find Mrs Chan(not in school todae.) best friends to ask for her Com lab to borrow the com for my CDP work..nid to type the reflection journal that muz be hand in to Mrs Lim at 1pm...well,actually when we were outside her(Mrs chan's best fren) class,we don dare to go in coz she is having another class... so i turn to d other class,saw the PLSH inside,look at who thier tcher is(thinking of asking thier tcher c if we r allow to borrow the com awhile) but argh* thier tcher is Mdn Haslina,Mdn haslina won't allow us to borrow the com one,so we went to her(Mrs chan's best fren) instead and of coz,we manage to get the com for work,then i hurry off to do my reflection journal...then aft i finish wif my work we were all ask to go to SAR so we went up there then.. we went into the SAR,i start to do my other stuff,and of coz print my self reflection but the com i used cant print for wat reason,i dono..so i change my com..and u noe wat i found on one of the com there...my disk and is d one tt i lend to JANE...argh* im so angry wif her man...she borrow it frm me then jus went off home without returning it back to me...wat the...she purposely or wat??!!luckily i found my disk if nt,she lost it,i gonna be mad wif her liao...then i print my work and of coz some lyrics(shut up and a thousand miles)then ard 12.45pm,we went to have lunch,we were thinking to have our lunch outside but coz we r all so so so hungry n my stomach hurts too...so we decide,watever there is in the canteen,jus eat..so off we go to the canteen,saw the PLSH..haha..wow...all so hardworking neh...myself has to be hardworking too... : P then chit chat a little wif them then off to buy my food,i have fried yee mee for my lunch...then Sue give us(BSA) a sweet,heart shape,pink in colour,and has thier grp name on it..written wif black colour marker...tts thier wishes for us for our exam...thnx gals n guy... well,aft tt,off to my nxt lessons..EFW...went up to S4,yup..did saw Mrs Tay there but...where's the rest? omg...so so so pathetic ar...onli us(me,betty,agatha,xue ping,yvonne,esther and zhen ling) were there for lessons...then we settle down,Mrs Tay give us our answer sheet to go throught on our own,but i was too lazy to even go through,jus suf net there... ; P then aft tt ard 3.28pm,we went for our nxt lessons...BKK,well,saw Mrs Seam there...she marked our attendance then aft tt,ard 3.45pm we left the school...board the bus home...so...jus a ordinary day todae....yup..nth special...

Finelly,i got my MAIA LEE"S ALBUM!!!!

Scum Music by Maia Lee See me up on the TV screen Upon the cover of a magazine Lingerie with the guitar strings Don't you wish you could have me back this mintue Thought you said i wasn't the one Now you want me back in your arms I've had enough of your selfish charms I know for a fact i should be having fun Had your chance but blew it again Sorry but i need someone more like a man Cheat on your girl then you tell your friends I'm a big girl now i can tell you're scum Look at me Tell me what you see I'm not a model or a beauty queen Don't accept re-entry fees You can call me short and be on your way now Everytime i cried you walked away Now's your turn to hide your tears away I don't believe that you could be A better man now anyway I gonna live my life for me today

well,todae,i went to west mall to get some stuff...then i mange to buy the Maia Lee's ablum(Emotionally Advised) then of coz went into the gift shop,intending to buy some gifts lah..but coz my sis is nt well,so we(agatha and me) took her to sit down n rest..then while im taking care of her,agatha went to buy a cup of hot milo for her to drink then agatha sent us to the bus interchange,then off we go home...then at home,i did my hse chores as usual then i play my new Cd,then rip it into my com,send to agatha,then nw im enjoying the new songs and chatting online MSN wif sue and agatha...then now im off to cotinued my talk wif them..cya guys and gals...

Singapore Hit Awards 2005!!!!

Singapore Hit Awards 2005 The very first award that JJ got was Best Local Music Composition - yi qian nian yi hou. Second, he's the grand winner of Best Local Male! YEAH!!!JJ ROX!!!! And aft tt he went up the stage to do his first performance. JJ played the guitar with his guitar teacher(which i don Noe wat is the name, and sang dou jiang you tiao, jian jian dan dan, and a very cool and outstanding version of bian hao 89757. he had done a gr8 performance..thumbs up* Next is results for Best Composing Artiste. There were four winners.. Mayday, ..Tanya, (lots of people screaming for JJ) JJ & David Tao. JJ seems to be a bit surprise n shocking...haha... The Fans of JJ is praying hard for JJ. Just When the Host were chatting.. a white grand piano was move on stage.. and of coz, it's meant for JJ! He explained that he will be singing the songs which he wrote for other singers - mo ri zhi lian (ZChen), dang ni (Cyndi), wo men (Energy), & ai xiao de yan jing (Vivian). A very touching performance. argh* my heart melts man.... Final award for the day....YEAH!!!!FINELLY,i hv been waiting for the moment n it has comes.... Best Male Vocalist! screams and applause from the audience even louder than ever... Hmm.. reminded me of Zpop when JJ was performing too...hahaha.... okk, anyway, JJ did his last performance, his soothing vocal on our favourite ballad yi qian nian yi hou! Yeah!!! I think it was a pity that JJ de fans didn sit together if nt gt more power to screams and maybe all can sing together loudly wif JJ neh....Jun Jie!!!!! Congrats! *applause

Selamat hari raya!!!!!!!

yeah yeah..todae is selamat hari raya...malays's new day...SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MY MALAY FRENS....haha....i hv fun todae at sue's hse..when i rearch her hse..wow....i see her in her traditional malay customes..green in color one...v v nice!!!!!haha...1st time see her dress so nicely...v v nice neh... then we eat a lot of malay snacks...delicous leh...then sue switch on d VCD)white chicks) for all of us to watch...haha..tis is me d 4th time watching it..still feels tt d movie is so funny...i laugh n laugh...then her relative come liao..so we all go into her room...then we play at her room... then oso play a lot of songs...ya...then aft tt,we gt each of us 1 green packets frm sue..sue told us tt malays custom is tt whoever is married or oreadi working can give green packets...so she give us lor..haha...hmm..maybe nxt yr,i'll invite her over to my hse when its come to chinese new yr..haha....okk...so i gonna pen off...bye bye... : )

Happy B'dae to Shu Ee!!!!

(StrengthZ)This is taken at last yr christmas eve.... 2004
This is the present us(StrengthZ) 2005 taken on shu ee's b'dae party!!!!

How Many Friends? The old man turned to me and asked "How many friends have you?" Why 10 or 20 friends have I, And named off just a few... He rose quite slow with effort And sadly shook his head "A lucky child you are To have so many friends," he said But think of what you're saying There is so much you do not know A friend is just not someone To whom you say "Hello" A friends a tender shoulder On which to softly cry A well to pour your troubles down And raise your spirits high A friend is a hand to pull you up From darkness and despair... When all your other "so called" friends Have helped to put you there A true friend is an ally Who can't be moved or bought A voice to keep your name alive When others have forgot But most of all a friend is a heart A strong and sturdy wall For from the hearts of friends There comes the greatest love of all!!! So think of what I've spoken For every word is true And answer once again my child How many friends have you??? And then he stood and faced me Awaiting my reply Softly I answered "If lucky...... one have "I" "You!!!!"

yeah!!!!todae is shu ee's b'dae n d strengthz went to her hse n help her get the things for her b'dae BBQ party...well,lots of things to carry...haha...then we oso gave her the present d strengthz has prepared for our one n only leader....yup...haha....okk...then we took d MRT all the way to bedok(East Coast)...hmm...a lot of ppl there... okk...then saw d pei hua students there too...all sec 1 coz pei hua sec onli gt sec 1...well,little gals lah...quite lovely...although they r a bit rude n does scold those "F" words lah...n a bit unreasonable..but well,still young...haha..then shu ee asked d strengthZ to play captain ball wif em..okk...so we play..StrengthZ vs Pei Hua....haha...5 to 5...shu ee join them as a team coz they short of 1 player...then we play..ended up..i don noe who wins...i think is us win bah...coz d last round we played is 10 to 8...then nv continued liao...quite fun but tiring coz we so long time nv play captain ball liao...haha... then aro 6 or 7++pm we start to bbq liao...i nv bbq coz im nt good in cooking...u ask me cook ar..haha..i may end up burning the food n the cooking untensils..hahaha....then every1 start to eat....i oso...eat a lot...v v full...haha...then coz aft tt,all still eating...me,betty,swee soon,jie ren(shu ee's younger bro),tian ling and weiling all went to sit at the rock which is at the seaside...well,all singing songs...chinses songs...english songs..even our swiss sch song...wah...sing the swiss sch song..reali so memoriam...thinking back* then,jie ren n i 1st spoted something.jie ren was onli a P6 kid so he jus say loudly tt he spoted something flowting on the water then i asked that wat is tt flowting on the water nxt...suddently,the sea waves so high...all of us sense something bad abt it so we quickly took our slippers n ran back to the BBQ pit...then the pei hua sec 1s going there we stoped them,don wan them to go...they were curious y we don allow them to go..so swee soon tell them the reason tt we saw something which we think is ghost...then 2 of em were scared n cried...aft cooling them down a bit...they went home...we conitued to eat...l8ter...yu qian n Mr Derick came wif jill...yeah..so happy to see them...long time nv c them liao...haha... then we continued to eat n cook food there untill aro 11.45pm then all of us help pack up,then d gals(yu qian,me,betty,tian ling,weiling)took shu ee's father cars n went to the nearest MRT...u Noe..its amazing tt we acutally manage to squeez 7 ppl at the back who is(me,betty,yu qian,weiling,shu ee plue jie ren)...haha....cool rite...but coz me n weiling small size,then i sit on yu qian's lap,wei ling sit on betty's lap,then me n weiling will hv to put our head down to cover the face in case any police is on the road checking...well,i feel so sick..coz im d last person to finish eating tt time,then i still hv to sit in a v v bad n uncomfrotable position...so do u think im ok??no of coz...then arrived the MRT station,all got down,then i feel so sick...wanna vomit...then on the way home...feel so sick...feel tt i will vomit anytime...but i bear wif it till i reach my MRT station...then still feel like vomiting but cant vomit...then rearh home take a bath then off to bed......

wat a fun day!!!

haha..okk...todae went to sch at 8am..start my BSA test at 8.30...haha...well,get to see sue,ling and then chat wif them a little while..then both sides r off to class...then at BSA test...u can hear sinlence in d classroom coz all buzy doin thier question paper(n its a test mah..) but funny thing,u will hear a BANG BANG BANG sound..n tts me..coz im baging d table... d idoilt supid computer..i jus cant get it right...aft awhile..finellly got it right..then mange to keep myself clam down then starting to recall all the steps tt sue thaught me tt nitez...okk..then mange to print out all the copy expected...haha aft tt,my test has end..and i can go home liao... :) but gonna w8 4 wei ling coz she stil gt lesson on mah...then me,agatha,betty stay at the canteen n hv our lunch lor..then aft i hv finish my food,we stay there n hv a chat... chat chat chat...agatha n betty went to the toilet left me alone there...im playing d video clip on betty's phone(the card opening ceremony) then sue,ling,prabha and helene came..haha Welcome,the PLSH gang..haha....okk...then chat wif em awhile...then they hv to go back to d nxt lessons...so bid gd bye to them... then,still w8ting...for weiling..hmm...w8 till 12.21pm finelly weiling is release..haha...then coz b4 she cum find us,1 of d NDP motivators told us tt we can get our NDP money todae mah..so we went to d PE room to find MR Neo...went pass OG....hmm...they all(Sue,ling,prabha and helene)doing thier flash wor...then there is Mrs Tay,sitting at the brauches outside OG class...oo...looking stirct... then at the PE room,haiz...MR Neo told us to be back by nxt mon..okk...haiz... then off to mit shu ee at tian ling's place...haha...then mit them all,then off to IMM.we went to Graint n brought a lot of stuff for the BBQ tml...n of coz..again opps..haha i brought 2 Sake ShuShi again..haha...then went to bukit panjang there n brought a few more things for the BBQ then w8 for Shu ee's father to come n fetch her,her mum and bro home...watching shu ee there all went off then me,tian ling,betty,swee soon( my god-bro) went to take bus 187 home...rearch home then ate my dinner...wahhh....so full neh...haha... then oso finelly got my pix tt i took at the my sch's SDU(student development unit which is near d libray)....okk...pen off here...so looking forward to tml....hopefully i hv a fun day tml...ya...haha....

haiz...so tiring...

PLSH
StrengthZ

Graduation (Friends Forever) And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives Where we're gonna be when we turn 25I keep thinking times will never changeKeep on thinking things will always be the same But when we leave this year we won't be coming backNo more hanging out cause we're on a different track And if you got something that you need to say You better say it right now cause you don't have another dayCause we're moving on and we can't slow down These memories are playing like a film without sound And I keep thinking of that night in June I didn't know much of love But it came too soon And there was me and you And then we got real cool Stay at home talking on the telephone with me We'd get so excited, we'd get so scaredLaughing at our selves thinking life's not fair And this is how it feels * As we go on, we remember all the times we had together And as our lives change come whatever, we will still be friends forever So if we get the big jobs And we make the big money When we look back now Will our jokes still be funny? Will we still remember everything we learned in school? Still be trying to break every single rule Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man? Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan? I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye Keep on thinking it's a time to fly And this is how it feels (Repeat *) La, la, la, la ...Yeah, yeah, yeah La, la, la, la ... We will still be friends forever Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now? Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow? I guess I thought that this would never end And suddenly it's like we're women and men Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round? Will these memories fade when I leave this town I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbyeKeep on thinking it's a time to fly (Repeat *,*,*)

hmm...so long nv update my blog liao...haha...v v v tired...don noe leh...too many things on my mind...got sch,test,exams,projects...and of coz..family pro lor...argh*its giving me a lot of trouble n promblems...argh* headach liao lah...haiz...

so tis few day,i cant listen to sad sad songs lor..if nt i will be down with a pool of tears...haiz....then,todae wake up early...but haiz...late again...haha...but luckly my tcehr nt in sch todae...but we r given a lot of assigment to do..okk..so do lor...OFP assignment done..haha... then gt the nxt assigment for EFW...hmm....2 peice of worksheet..the past year papers...haiz...pretty hard...plus i oreadi forgotten a lot abt it...haha...yup... then aft EFW,i hv my BKK progress test 5 todae...hmm...starting can do after tt,as i saw one by one,my classmate all done wif thier own paper...then left..i start to panick...then haiz...forget how to do... - , -'' haha...then of coz still finish it...hopefully i can pass bah...haiz... well,then don feel quite well again since aft noon...argh*

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hmm...normal day...

hmm....quite a day todae...

well,todae,went to sch early morning..v tiring lor...but still hv to go...then rearch sch late for a few mins...opps....Mrs Tay start lessons liao..opps...hurry in the BIT room...argh*stomachached...so rush down to toilet...oo...feel better..okk...hurry back in BIT room...well,Mrs Tay say no more online learning for us liao..haiz...gonna finish all the writing assignments... okk...so jus do ass 1,2 and 3 todae...hmm...well,my grammer nt tt gd....so make quite a number of mistakes for 1st assigment..then later on did much better... after the EFW lessons...gt 3 hrs break coz CDP tcher nv come...weeeee....yeah!!!! 3 hrs break..hmm...go where leh?well,we go to CCK lot 1....hv korean Ramen there...Delicous....nice....love the ramen...jus nice leh...then oso buy a small packet of shi shu...well,acutally wanna buy the Slamon ShuShi but jane say tt its nt v fresh wor..okk...so nv buy lor...buy d other one...well,the shushi is so-so lah...still prefer to buy frm gaint...hehe... well,those who reali noe me sd noe tt my fav food is shu shi,n is Slamon ShuShi!!!haha....when ever go out wif fren,gt chance,sure buy one..lolz....n my record is i can eat up to 6 slamon shu shi per day...haha....dam nice lor...haha...oso like to eat raw tomato wif salt,shashimi...love to drink coke...coke-vanilla...haha....all tt reali makes me wanna eat...yum yum...haha... then,sms sue...well,they oso tcher nv come,so gt 2hr break wor..ai ya...sd hv w8 longer...can go out wif them mah..well,nvm...haha...since at lot 1 might as well do some window shopping,check out wat the lastest n coolest things around...haha.... hmm....saw lots of pretty cool things there...saw one of d cap,black in color at the mini toons there...very nice...wanna buy,but too ex...no money...haha...maybe nxt time...haha....then,sue sms me,saying them at clmenti mc donald hv lunch..oo....hmm...maybe they don wanna move too far bah...haha...okk...then aro 2 their lessons end liao wor..so gd...can go home liao...haha...us too muz w8 till 5pm wor.... haiz..okk....window shopping at there for 2hrs ++ then take MRT back to sch....then hv pot lor...hmm....acutally,was suppose to hand in the last department work todae...but..haiz...i bring d wrong colored file...then oso forgot to replace my printing paper...ai yo....so cant print lor...then muz hand in tml lor...haha....okk..so nw working on my POT lor...haha....argh* okk...gonna pen off....tata....

holiday todae!!!

okk...wake up early in the morning at 6.30am...went to queentown to visit dad...well,say a lot to him...n oso got lots of instructions frm him too....after tt,went off home aro 10.30am...rearch home round 11.55am...sis went home 1st coz i nid to top up my PP card for my phone... okk...then top up,sms sue n agatha...well,bad news for sue lor..coz her dad is in the hospital... (don worry,i'll be there 4 ya.. n i'll pray for ur dad too...ur dad gonna be fine...) well,i miz my dad a lot....man...i tot i hated him???but ened up talking to him a lot...then miz u lor...haiz....

sue's birthday party

well,todae...coz me,agatha,prabha and ling is preparing the surprise for sue..so delay time...so late for the prsty..n sue kana scold by her sis...(sry,sue..sry...a thousand apologise...)then so go there..then so jus go there lor...then at 1st we all is like taking pixs...then after tt,sing 3 version of b'dae song...(1st is normal english one,then 2nd is to zoo one,then last is chinese one)after tt,ask sue to make her wishes...then cut cakes...then ALL TUCK IN TO THE FOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!! wahhhhhhh..so delicious....the food...so nice....haha...eat quite a lot..had 2 plates of fried rice...haha then after tt,we all had fun...a lot of fun...then chit chatting...haha...then oso present the big big birthday card done by betty,my sis...(she didn go coz of smthing esle...so on her behalf wished sue happy birthday) then took pix...then all of us present our present to sue...then ate a lot...then contiued to play took pixs...haha..quite a lot...haha...then play n chit chatting n taking pix till 11+++pm...uh oh...so late...gonna rush home...if nt kana scolding leh...okk...help sue wif her present to her home..then me,agatha,prabha and ling walking along the path to take bus 154 to MRT....then rearch MRT...OMG....we miss the last train...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh we r stuck...at lakeside MRT station...so hv to take cab lor...me,agatha n prabha together take cab home..while ling too.... sis watching tv...don't brother abt me...k hers alone...ya...haha...okk. rearch home...hmm....preparing to get scolding for coming home late.... but...but....nth happen....wats going home??me again 2nd time go out alone wif jus fren come home so late again...how come noone scold me ar???hmm.....(??) then mum onli nag at me for abt 1 min then got back to slp so jus go n bath...then sortly got a lot of photo we took todae... over all we did enjoy ourself...yah....GALS....n frens... U ROX!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!SUE!!!!!!llolz....

well,hmm...todae...i don noe if its my gd luck or wat....i acutally went to sch for EFW lessons(by d way,Mrs Tay nt aro todae) then arou 10.45am i went home...hmm...then at sch,doing nth...jus sufing net n chatting on MSN wif my frens lor....then....went home..pretty boring lah..nth to do...then sis using com oso....so i called sue lor...(Sry to distrub u when ur having BSA lessons leh...)yup...then found out tat joyce didn go to sch..so called to joyce...well,she is kinda late for sch lah..when i called her..she is abt to go to sch liao...so didn reali tok to her a lot in phone...then she hurry off to sch...well,me ar...stay at home watching tv....then coz got nth to do..went to slp at 3++pm to 6pm lor...then woke up,mum,dad(didn noe when dad was home...n i don even noe his at home...)sis went to temple for vegetables dinner....whereas bro is playing online Games...i don feel like going out either so jus stay at home...(can say i todae whole day at home doing nth...)then jus w8 for mum to bring my dinner home...then doing hse chorse of coz....todae is jus so darm boring....argh*

well...todae....morning...ok lah...SW2..as usual play badminton...at 1st is play wif sam..then i ask shera whose playing wif JANE beside nid 1 more ppl...i don noe they heard it wrongly or wat...jsne jus suddently ask shera come over my side..then i go over tat side..ok...nvm..jus go...ok..playing wif JANE...hmm...she use a lot of smap...argh*cant catch her ball...im running all over the place instead...okk...then is like her smap is so stronge...didn reali dare to get her ball...then after...got BSA..at B2/104...okk...going side...then i stright away on my com...then..coz got 1/2 hr break mah..so i go out lor...to canteen n eat...then...i come back..c sue's msg o...okk..reply her...then oso chat wif shu ee lah...gonna do smth abt the form thingy...then...sufing net,doing my BSA assignment...then...hmm...i go out again don noe do wat lah...saw sue...she looks sad..ask her..then is like sad coz (someone) did wanna attend her party lor..okk...confort her...hoping she'll feel better...ya...so now im fine liao...so happy..can eat well liao...but kinda worried for sue...gonna think of some way to cheer her up...haha...okk...gonna pen off here...

well...todae...is a lonely day for me...tats wat i though in the morning when coming to sch... well....not so bad lah..todae....hv lessons till 11 then hv 2 hrs break..1st hr wif betty,agatha they all lor...hv omelette rice...hmm...been able to eat well liao....haha....although still feel "dying" but is much better...then after tat...around 12...send betty they all to co-op tat side...then off they go to suntec...(a pity..im not selected to go lor...)okk...then feel lonely...then...esther saw sue they all....so jus went to them....told them im lonely...then chit chat a bit...haha...then...sit down...everyone buy thier food...well,i hv my lunch liao..so i jus buy drink lor....then,after tat we hv a wonderful lunch together...feel so gr8...after tat...they go n watch badminton class competition while i went for Mrs Tay's EFW lessons...well...went to B2/204...boring...not so good...gonna suffer 2hrs....then though our lessons wd end at 5 coz Mrs Seam wanna get us to do some work...haiz...but good news jus ahead...we r let off at 4...haha...then so continued doing EFW assignment..then after tat,monitress called Mrs Seam...tcher say we r let off at 3...haha...even better....haha...okk....so all my classmate went home..but im alone..don wanna go home alone jus like tat....so sms sue...they r hving tok(Managing anger)...i went up to 4th lvl...then,jus nice...they r hving break...then...esther wanna go home liao....okk..then bye to esther...sue n lai ling pulled me into thier class....haha...at 1st feel anioux....feel nervous....then slowly..adapting to my surrounding...feeling better...wow...OG they can jus laugh out loud....thier class is filled wif fun and laugter..haiz...unlike my class...filled wif competitors...stress..like during war like tat....cant even laugh out loud like OG they all....argh* y cant we jus relax n enjoy...y must my class be so up to standard....argh*..wat so-called "best class"....don think so....argh* okk...then after tat...receive a msg frm esther...uh oh....not a very positive msg....haiz..here comes my sorrow...argh* but heck care lah....argh*...okk...then went home wif prapa...hmm...his very tall..gonna look up when talking to em....haha....or should i say im too short??...lolz.....ya....so...is ok ok liao....don worry gals....(frenz)...i'll be ok...kk....

argh*todae is ok lah....at least appetities is back

argh*todae is ok lah...at least my appetities is back a little...can finish a plate of ommelett rice todae...haha..finelly....after so many days of skipping meals...haha...ya..then tml got my BKK CA....haix.....don noe can catch up wif the class a not leh....my faith is sitll a little....like onli hv 28% of faith lor...hmm....trying not to think too much...well...day by day....although i still feel rather down lately...but gonna push myself up...if not will lag behind one mah....ya...then tml,my class 25 ppl going suntec for a career field trip lor...onli selected students going onli..well,agatha,betty,yvonne,samantha,xue ping,malay gals,debra and natasha...in class going lor..left me, JANE, shera,esther..3 guys not going lor..haiz....then todae..i hv my late breakfast(Bunch) at canteen...Mrs Seam came...haix...she busy counting the consent form for tml trip...haix...then,she told us tat those in our class very pity cannot go...(which brings me sinking...)then say tat she jus told d rest who not going an excuse tat not enf money to bring all of us go...wat an excuse...lame lor...don noe she don noe or forgot...im 1 of d grp tats not going lor...say like tat in front of me...hurts man....faith drop lor...haix....then she put her files at our table here..went to buy food...i think she wanna sit down n eat wif us...man...i don wan...she's here...im stressed....then after she went to get her food...my OG fren(Sue,Joyce,Lai Ling,Praba) came...haha...then we chat chat lor...then Mrs Seam came liao...though she still wanna sit wif us..haha..but she sit wif d others students instead..phew*thnx to my OG fren man...haha...then...we jus like chat a while then they go off for thier lessons...we oso go off for our lessons lor...then after tat...our BSA lessons chatting online msn wif lai ling,joyce n sue..haha...chatting abt all kinds of things lah...haha...(we all so bad...chatting instead of hving lessons properly...haha...)ya...then..after tat...my lessons finish...came out....then all of d sudden...joyce came in fornt of me then boo...haha..so funny...then sue oso...so funny..alll of d sudden found her beside me...haha..ya..then chat chat a while they nid to go for lessons...so i go home lor...haha...then at home...chat again..online wif sue they all lor..haha...they still at sch lah..haha...ya...so todae...hmm...ok-ok lor...ya..hope tat tml will be better...

well,3rd day of skipping a few meals...

haiz...haiz...still don feel like eating..no appetitie....how......haiz....too sad still....too much pressure....feel like crying....cant w8 tat tis wk is over...than at least can don see Mrs seam for the nxt few wks....always feel giddy,headace,stomachach...lost of appetitie....argh* getting frm bad to worst....argh*don noe can hold on for how long man...argh*feel like crying again....didn noe watta do....who can save me....im so depressed...who.....who can get me outta tis dark world...im sinking in again....argh*tat sucide feeling is back again...how....don wanna die yet...but feeling so dark...i cant see bright light in front of me....n....oso got stress frm my frenz too...(Jane)...is like again...wat ever i do....is childish n baby to her....y....she aim me not others....she always like to bullet me....argh*....sob..sob...sob....1st word frm her...so hurtful...pains in my heart...sank deeper....how...i reali feel like killing myself again....sinking deeper in tis darkest world....how....cant help it....argh*....cant even catch up my best subject...OFP....is like suddently even my best subject OFP oso constanly failing liao...how.....argh*argh*argh*sob...sob..sob...how.....how....sob..sob..sob...sob...

1st time going out wif frenz onli..my sis not tagging along..

todae i 1st time going out wif frenz onli..without my sis tagging along..feels so happy...coz can feel like more freedom lor..then saw joyce at MRT stations..so go up n look for sue in train then found her we ran in lor...then sue show us her phone..then she play my fav english song, "have you ever" by S club...haha...very touching..(thnx ya..sue..)well,gr8 experience lah...although tis is me 2nd time going to the church(Yhope) lor...everything is the same...oso very lucky tat get to see the same paster...hehe...he's very funny...crak quite a number of jokes..then hv dinner wif joyce,her sis and sue lor...we had chicken rice lah..haha..ok lah...but coz due to stress,still don feel like eating even though hungry so onli eat a bit..then after tat,go attenda "mini farewell/birthday party..so we all sing songs..say prayers..then after coz its getting late so we r gohome lor..then jus got home...okk...gonna pen off here..wanna chexck mail liao..hehe..

a very happy n feeling so...good...

tis is taken on christmas eve 2004 wif my best grp of sec sch frens...
tis is taken at my Motivator's party..
tis is taken wif some of my ITE frens,betty,me,sue,li ling, agatha and my SW2 teacher

todae,i feel so happy...i feel like im suddently so light..is like nothing is pressing on me..i feel like off loading liao...i don't feel so heavy...like flying free in the blue sky...feels very good...thnx for all ur encouragement....at least i have a bit of this confidents liao...at least i can tell myself...i can do it...sharon,i can do it..belive in it...thnx....thnx for all my frens who have been caring for me...n oso been concern for me too....thnx....so...i gonna do all my best at the interviews,jobs,studies and exams...of coz including my favourite...MUSIC!!!!haha....ya....tats all...then all above is all the pictures i hv wif all my frens...

gd news for me...hahahahaha...

tats betty,me,sue,li ling,agatha and my SW2 teahcer...

hahaha...sue todae tell me tat i hv a chance to sing a 1 yr contract ....i hv w8 for 4yrs since...im so happy tat i don noe how to thnx her...im reali gald...im jus so happy man..finelly...jus love music...when im young..i usually envious those kids who learn how to play music...i oso wished to..but coz my parents aren't so rich..n learning music is expensive...then when i went to sec sch..i got into the band...leanr to play clarinet for half the yr...due to some reason...i quit...but i went to join chior later when im sec 3 n still learn music...but then when im sec 4..i pass down frm my CCA...since then..i did not touch music for almost a yr...but now finelly...lol...

yeah..finelly got my pay..

well,todae i actually did much better than yesterday..coz reali remember where the stocks were,prices of the products..and how to serve the customers..then oso very tiring coz gonna stand whole day frm morning 9.30am to 6pm...my legs hurt a lot after the long hours of standing...todae,not so nervous..can say i did not bad ya...accept still a bit nervous...but is ok...im begining to accept the reality...how works go abt...ya...begining to realise of how the world is abt oso...but i belive i can make it...bcoz if i don take out my 1st step i can nv e like others to be so sucessful and indepedent...haha...ok,gonna rest..tata...

a tiring day for me...

well,todae is my 1st day of my 2 days job...its my 1st time doing a customers service job..so of coz im nervous...when i started serving the 1st customer i saw...she asked me the price of the shirt..so i told her the price...my voice was shaking....argh* ok..then she wanted the shirt so i got her a new set of it...i find all the stock behind the clothings...bcoz i know where the stocks was..so its easy for me n got the shirt for the customers quick...well,the continued serving customers helping out and getting what customers need...untill around 1++pm i got my lunch..its chicken rice...normally i would eat quite a lot...and is able to finish the food...but i cant finish the food todae..onli mange to finish more than half a bit....coz of nervousness....haiz..always like tat,if im nervous i 'll either drink a lot of water if not i ate a little...or i cant finsh my food...oh well,then after lunch..contiued serving customers...then all the way till 6++pm then i board the bus home...well,a very tiring but good experience day for me...coz i 1st time serving...hmm....not bad for todae...hope tomorrow can do better...and is able to smile naturely when serving customers coz i didn manage to smile todae and is again coz of nervousness....

todae a little lucky day for me...

haha...my idol...JJ Lin Jun Jie

well,todae..suppose to have BKK test but my teacher last minute then tell us no test for today,she has postpone it to nxt monday...YEAH YEAH YEAH...im so darm happy man...yes...i can hv a little bit more time to prepared then...haha...

carevolutions on last sunday...

and tis is taken recently on last sunday..see the diffrences??we all change...hahaha

tis is taken at Jan tis yr

well,the carevolutions is fun..at taka there...after the performances n the competitions...after tat we across the road to the donnoe wat square there n took some neoprints..n tis is wat we hv... but i cherish them a lot..hope to see them again soon...haha...n do volunteering work again...

yeah!!!todae is JJ's autograph sessions at IMM!!!

todae,i went to IMM to watch JJ's autograph sessions...rearch there aroud 4.30pm but it start at 5pm so i jus stood there and waited for half an hour and then he appear..the whole asmospher jus suddently high up...he is in pink panter's t-shirts wif a pink jackets...looks pretty cool..then he sung us)(fans) a few songs,everyone kept waving at him,me too and shouting at him,of coz not me lah..im very quite...haha...then is tat,i 1st time can stand so near him n is able to see him clearly unlike tat time,when i see him for the 1st time at Nee Ann City,the Yes 9.33FM streetconcert...very far away,cant reali see him clearly...haha..so is very happy...but i forgot to took some photo of him...ai ya....so i onli came back after 7++pm then took the stage's pix..haha...so at least lor...still happy lor...then i hv my dinner wif mum and sis at the kopitiam at lvl 4,met tian ling there,she hv her dinner wif her family too...lolz...but bad thing for me,when im bring my food over to my seats..i seal my hand..oh no....its swollen...very pain leh...haiz...don care jus eat...then went home the bubble tat goes very swollen after being seal is brust..argh*very very painful....so i jus stick a plaster over it...then jus carry on wif my work...hmm...tml im going to the CARE carevoluntions..hmm...nv being to it b4...gonna find out frm the CARE staff....haha.....

haha,yesterday went to watch "The Maid" at clementi..

haha,yesterday went to watch "The Maid" at clementi..hmm...starting ok lah..then after tat,a bit scary lor....then slowly not so scary leh..kinda boring instead....a lot of dilect words is spoken inside,so sometimes may not reali understand what they are talking abt...so i read the subtitles lor...but hor...the bass of the sound is very lound sia...argh*then,somemore watching it at clementi de Theatre...my friend who stay there b4 told me,clementi's movie theatre is the most scariest and hunted theatre...coz.... its dirty..and u noe what i mean by "dirty"....n i went inside,at 1st,i cant see anything coz i got serious night blindness...then slowly i can see the chairs..and everything inside...but i oso can see some dark "shadows" there i can 100% comfrim its not human...n i noe it...i belive in wat i saw....oso watching wif us..some at the door..some at the top...some behind..but tat does not brother me...i jus enjoy my movie...then at there,not full hse so onli a few ppl watching lor..we brought along our pop corns,sea weeds and some mineral water...so i jus ate n drink a lot....then after the whole show,my words n comments for the show is....Ok ok lah...not so scary lor....but kinda boring....but coz of tis movie,i get to noe somemore things of my chinese culture...hehe....

finally the ghost month is over...

ok...ghost month is voer..finally...ha...now i can finelly watch the movie"The Maid" n go for a swim maybe at west coast swimming complex lor...haiz...holidays for sec sch n primary sch...but studying time for us....haiz....ok...then is tat my test results is out..hmm....not very good....im too slacking liao...must work hard liao,buck up more liao....haiz..then on 2 sep,i hv look up Mr Neo n requested him if he can ask Mrs Jayln Tay to come over our campus to teach us fun dancing and fun singing....and he said he will write her a letter asking abt the price for the dance...if its deal,we'll pay by edusave...hopefully its not to expensive lor...then i oso mention it to be ite-wide so that other students from other ITEs can join in too....hopefully its a deal then i can learn dancing....nobody knowas abt tis yet...onli wendy knows....ya...hehe...

okk,a few days nv write blogs liao...

ok,its been a few days since i last wrote blogs...well,feeling much better...not so stress le...not so bad liao....but..still kinda sad....n a bit...haiz*my test results were out liao,results...arent so good as i think...jus pass the border line onli.....im jus too slack le....haiz*gonna start working hard liao...well,yesterday,i went for the 1st lessons for my CCA,pottery club...well,we learn how to wage the clay,then smooth it into a pot....well,not bad lah...i can say still quite good....well,on 29 oct is shu ee's b'dae..gonna celebrate her b'dae at east coast bearch..we be having BBQ...gonna invite all the CARE teachers,staff,some of her frens,us(StrengthZ) and a few of the ITE frens too...haha...tats still quite a long way though...oh yeah...the Project surperstar finals...haiz*Kelly Pan Jia Liactually loses to Kelvin Chen Wei Lian....haiz*but i still perfer Kelly...Kelly,i support u all the way!!!!

still feeling sad..n feeling a lot of stress...

sigh*got a lot of stress,jus heard frm Mrs seam tat there will be a test b4 she leave for inplantach..sigh*must she like tis...hmm..feeling very tired n sleepy todae..coz today is the 1st day of sch right after our 1wk holiday....ya...so still quite dreamy...lolz...better wake up lor...haha...n so,todae's lessons,nth much quite went into my head...ya....cant reali learn properly..still day dream a lot......ya.....n oso still feel a lot of pressure...don noe can stand untill when....sigh*maybe cant hold much longer liao...gonna fall anythime frm now...sigh*sob..sob...sob...sigh*i cry again....again,im hurt oso..when i read...sigh*sob..sob..sob...

Our sec sch class gathering at east coast todae...

Yup...todae is my sec sch class gathering at east coast...hmm....arrived abit late there....so we(swee soon,sis,shu ee,tian ling,weiling and me)all took taxi/cab to east coast lor...me,sis took cab wif swee soon while shu ee,tian ling and weiling took another cab...hehe...they arrived there 1st follow by us..hmm...our taxi fare is abt $4.50,then shu ee they all is $6++...haha..the taxi driver cheat their money sia...ok...then when rearch there i very excited n ran to the beach there....hehe..cuz long time nv go beach side liao...wow...to hear the sound of the wind at the beach side...so darm smooth....luv it.....close ur eyes n listen to the sound make by the sea wave..slowly bend down..touch the sea water...its warm...tat feeling is reali relaxing man..then,we all put our bag at the beanch where sin yi is BBQing lor...then we all go play...left Sin yi n wei wen there BBQing,preparing food lor..then we all go play play...then awhile later we hv our food...bee hoon,BBQ chicken,Crabsticks,hotdogs lor...hehe...then is tat after awhile i go walk walk wif tianling jus the two of us,shu ee wif swee soon n sis wif weiling lah...then i told tian ling a lot of things...abt my ite life...my NDP story...how i met all my NDP frens....yeah...talking abt all tat i reali miz it man...lolz...then,chit chat for some time go back...again..we take cab..tis time is me,betty n tian ling 1 cab,shu ee,weiling n swee soon another cab..then tian ling instruct the deriver go bedok MRT station mah..then after the driver go on the way awhile told the driver to take shorter road lah...i think he ok ok lah...then,i remember wat swee soon told us abt the directions...hmm...it seems luk the driver is taking a longer raod leh...i ask the driver,:"uncle,u took a longer raod izit.."then tian ling added:,"hor...u cheat us ar...i copy ur car no then report to police ar.."then,we rearch the station liao..then is $6.60 mah but the taxi driver jus ask us to pay $4...haha...think he noe liao...lolz....when i rearch home is abt 11++pm liao...sigh*bit tiring...but fun lor...hehe..then oso get to meet a lot of the ex-calssmate lah..hmm..change a lot...but still the same...haha...okk....sigh*reali tiring liaop...my brain system gonna shut down liao...nid to rest liao...gonna pen off here...